Seperti Tawakalnya Burung

This is so unlike me to blog about religious things because truthfully, I am indeed undeserving. However, this is something that I, myself constantly have to struggle with and I know it can be relatable and perhaps helpful to those who are somehow in the same boat as me.

I'm writing for a friend who is too beaten up. A friend who thinks God is against her/him. A friend who is still blinded to see what's beneath the exterior surface.

How many of us yang betul-betul letak 100% trust in Allah? Berapa ramai yang salahkan nasib or even worse takdir when they don't get what they think they deserve? Berapa ramai yang sebelum buat anything percaya yang Allah is there and He is watching you out? I've been in a place where I think God was unfair to me. Being 17 at that time with a promising future, I used to think that my dream was within my grasp. Everyone knew it too back then. Top 10 in every exam, leading the school debate team to endless fame & success, made it to pidato peringkat kebangsaan, *yedaa yedaa* anything that a 17 years old can possibly achieve, you name it. It got to a point where I thought my success was already guaranteed, signed and sealed. Little did I know, He, The Possessor of every knowledge had another plan for me. Cut short to March 3rd, 2015 when the bomb finally dropped. I..... did not make it to Top 10 this time. Not even to Top 30. For the first time, my name was not with the award recipients. I did'nt even dare to look at anyone. The fact that I was soooooooooooooo close (7A+ 1A 1B+), broke me even more.

I could not pursue my dream in medicine, I was not eligible for scholarships but I insisted that things happened for a reason, every cloud has a silver lining. You see, Allah works in mysterious ways. He has His ways of telling us that what we want is not necessarily good.

(Al Baqarah verse 216)

Fighting has been enjoined upon you while it is hateful for you. But perhaps, you hate a thing that is good to you; and perhaps you love a thing that is bad to you. And Allah Knows, while you know not.

He knows and He plans. We have limited knowledge but we also plan. There is a huge difference. For everything bad that you have ever encountered just remember that Allah does not work in vain. There will always be hikmah, even when you can not see it doesnt mean that it's not there.

Put your tawakal in Him, just like the birds do. (Hadis riwayat Ahmad, Tirmidzi, Al Hakim)

(side note/ degree is going smooth but it has only been 2 weeks)